Who else but Me?

Fun.

2010-09-25T16:20:00.002+08:00

Went out with THEM UP THERE (:

Had a bunch load of fun. ^^
EOY is coming and i gotta start revising.
Hopefully i can promote.

Fell in love with my bestfriend♥

Holidays.

2010-09-12T15:20:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Faeez and Zikri's birthday at Arab Street.
Qiam Twice.
Slacked much. Bored much.

HARI RAYA!
Ask For Forgiveness Manymany.
Get Money Manymanymany.

Just a Dream.

Lost Smile.

2010-08-07T17:14:00.002+08:00

Irreplaceable.

No matter how hard i try,
Its still lost ; My smile.

Tell Me Goodbye.

2010-07-22T22:46:00.001+08:00

Tell Me Goodbye.

Sad it just aint happening.
Wished it could be better.
Sorry to be scrapping,
But i just cant let ya.
To be less than happy
I said, look at me.
I couldnt live with myself seeing you lack in
The things you deserve
Baby, you were superb
Best believe that it hurts
That bleeds, these words.
I can feel the aching through my body
It just take a bigger part of me
To let you go.

I wish it werent so.

Unstable.

2010-07-21T22:14:00.001+08:00

Few months have passed
And we're still the same.
The common thing that we feared
Is that it'll happen again

When i asked, "What happens to us?"
She says. "I'm just lost."
I gave her time to think
So she wont feel remorse.

So i'm just sitting in class
And i'm waiting for her answer
Thinking to myself,
"Did i reallyreally matter?"

And the memories came back
And i fade away from class
Then i realised the way
That i behaved wasnt really my best.

Now its just too late
Cos in the past, i didnt know
That she was feeling abit different
I'm so damn slow.

'From the tiniest of glances
To the biggest of smiles.'
That is one thing i havent
Experienced for awhile.

Cos the holidays came
And the feelings may have faded
Like a big house,
Only left to be unpainted.

Well, thats not the end
Of our 'fairytale' come true
Cos im hoping for the best,
Bby, i still love you.

Unstable mind.
Cant think straight.
In the midst of a freefall.

Yours Truly.

2010-07-15T21:30:00.002+08:00

I still do.

Best ever.

2010-06-20T12:35:00.003+08:00

3rd Week of Holidays!
Tuition on monday.
Cambodia CIP Team Chalet from Tuesday to Thursday.
Cambodia CIP Team BBQ on Thursday night.
One word to describe this week ;
Irreplaceable.

Star-crossed.

Sleepless Nights.

2010-06-09T20:21:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for everything
I really didnt know.
For the pain that i've caused,
For the tears that flow.

I guess its too late.
I guess thats just it.
Like trying to stop a huge fire
From being lit.

You were on my mind
every single moment.
Sleepless nights was the cause
of a heart, so broken.

I didnt know what to do,
I tried to hang on.
Before the news came to me,
I thought you were long gone.

I made a mistake,
I really didnt know.
That you made that decision
But i let you go.

I'm sorry
If I didnt meet your expectations
Now I'm part of your history,
Hope I wont be ancient.

I cherished
Every moment that we shared.
I know I truly loved you,
Like we were paired.

Im speechless,
I dont know what to say anymore.
Hope we'll stay as friends
Like we were once before.

I apologise for everything.
Im sorry.

Second Chances.

2010-06-08T16:49:00.004+08:00

I'd better get going
Before i hurt myself again
The love that we "shared"
Was just pretend.

You can go back to the life
Before there was me
I only caused unhappiness
To what we'd be.

Gotta pick myself up
And start walking away
Before the last of me
Would be torn away.

Leaving the mess,
Leaving the mistakes that i made behind
Just wishing that
I could turn back the hands of time.

Slowly letting go,
You becoming my past
I just wished that you and me
Could have last.

"It wasn't meant to be"
I guess its true
Its been too long since you said,
I love you.

Downside Up.

2010-06-05T17:54:00.002+08:00

Maybe you're right,
Maybe its time.
Time for this guy
To finish his rhyme.

Sometimes he tries hard
To change his ways.
Wishing he was a bird,
So he could fly away.

Away from the misery,
The darker side of life.
Thats only the blunt part
Of the knife.

The sharp part of it,
Is when the truth kicks in.
Judging what's wrong from right,
Fat from thin.

The truth hurts,
Welcome to reality.
Chained and locked up,
Far from being free.

Ending of a fairytale.

Reality Check.

2010-05-26T22:33:00.005+08:00

Am i not worthy?

What caused this all?
"I dont have much trust in you"
Was the start of a freefall.

Im lucky to have friends,
who really cared for me.
Been there, done that.
Not history.

Heart-to-heart talks,
The image of our smiles.
The sound of our laughter,
Could go on for miles.

Maybe i got sidetracked.
Maybe i did.
But my feelings for you, bby
Was something i never hid.

I never changed the story,
I never said any lie.
But time waits for no one
As my tears start to dry.

Thoughts appear in my head,
Whenever you're on my mind.
Hope and faith in you,
Some thing i never left behind.

Im not blaming anyone
Why would i do that?
No gain and all loss.
Things that crush my soul flat.

Looking at the beginning,
We were like a fairytale.

2010-05-22T08:04:00.003+08:00

Thoughts in my head,
It wont go away.
It hurts too much,
What you said that day.

Sleepless nights,
Three days in a row.
All i recalled was,
Hatred and sorrow.

Even teachers noticed,
But i gave them excuses
Trying to be my normal self,
Feeling so worthless.

Friends asked, What happened?
Why did it end up like this?
The words wouldn't leave my mouth,
As I clenched my fist.

Now, I'm wondering,
If you really loved or care.
Cause every night i think about you,
The pain still hard to bear.

ILOVEYOU, TRULY.
IMISSYOU, DEARLY.
But the truth is covered up,
so damn clearly.

I'm hoping for the day to come,
For us to be the same.
Hoping for the day i say, "ILOVEYOU, BBY"
For us to be together again.

It hurts
but sometimes,
i cant let go of
that small thread of
hope and faith.

Sorry for everything.

Hope.

2010-05-15T21:42:00.003+08:00

I'm not willing to let history repeat itself.
It hurts too much for me to go back.
I made a decision.
I made a promise to myself.

I want to be yours.
I want to be your happiness.
I want to be your escape.
I want to be the one who's there for you.
Through thick and thin.

You are amazing.
You put a smile on my face, without fail.
You lift my spirit whenever i'm blue.
Words cant define you, you're special.
Especially to me.

My mind has never stopped thinking about you.

I miss you.
I love you.

♥ ; A's.

Different.

2010-05-14T16:00:00.004+08:00

MYE IS OVER!

Whatever happens, i hope i made a difference.
Hopefully.

2010-04-24T11:41:00.004+08:00

GOING TO BE MIA.

UNTIL END OF MID-YEAR EXAMS

just tag, text or call me if anything.

Loving you more each day.
PILLOW♥ ; CLUMSY♥ ; SMALLFEET♥

2010-04-03T16:37:00.000+08:00

imissyou. iloveyou

020410
Went to WILDWILDWET.
Met Sherwyn, KarKheng, Darren, Janan, TingPeng, Joseph, Eugene, Ryan, Melvin at dte mac.
Ate, waited for Shan Huai. Bought tickets and went in!
One or two of them first time going to www.
Hopefully, it was awesome and memorable. For me, its damn fun.
We played around til some of them got scratches cos they 'wrestled' in the water. Funnyshit.
After 4 hours, we left. Go eat at foodcourt, met EugeneTan then slacked at ehub. Ziyun came, BIGBIGBIG mistake.
Went to darren's place, nowhere else to go. Slacked, talktalk til 10.45++ then me, kheng, sherwyn and eugene went home.

2010-03-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

We had our first gig at NGEE ANN CITY on 180310
It was fun, stressful. Yet, it was memorable.
We have a few more performances coming up, feeling excited for them.
To check out our performance on FACEBOOK~

190310
Woke up damn early. Needed to go to ACS for BBSS concert rehearsal.
THOSE WHO WANT TO WATCH THE CONCERT, PLEASE APPROACH MR MARVIN LEUNG OR MR GOH.
On the way to ACS, no mood. Dont ask why.
Reach, stupid security guard ask us walk through carpark, up the staircase.
In the end, we were only 20 metres from where we were.
Nvmnvm, we then sat in the hall. Waited then rehearsed. First time was okay lahhh.
Second time we did it, much better.
Then went to play badminton at AmandaWong's place.
Played with jeans. Haizzz....
Nvmnvm, im still UNDEFEATED there.

200310
Planned to go wildwildwet today but it started raining, so cancelled.
Maybe next time uh.
Headache and no mood just now, so i napped til 6.30.
Felt much better.
Feeling HUNGRYHUNGRY now.
I go eateat now~

Your presence lifts up my spirit.
Your laughter makes me smile.
Your smile makes my day.
No matter how suckish i feel in the beginning,
you're always there to change it.
Words cant express what you mean to me.
I miss you.
I love you♥

Lost my mood.

2010-03-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

Remembering times when i was waywayway different than the way i am today.
Those times when we were all small and mischievous, doing things we were told not to do.
Having friends, talking and arguing. Teasing each other about things that seem idiotic nowadays.
Time sure does fly.
Wishing we could have slowed things down and just look around, seeing how amazing those times were.
I miss those memorable times. Its just diferent now.
Now, one by one, people turn against each other. One by one, we all fall down.
But those with true, real friends, just have the best fun you can have. Trust me, i've been there.
Nowadays, people start to look at me and change their perspective of me just because of the people i hang out with.
Well, i'm just gonna toughen up and get through life being me.
People cant change the way we are, they just have to accept it.

Its been a few days that i feel so pekcek.
Class cheer i help do, class tee also i help.
What more do you want me to do?
Abit of helping me out with small things that i cant do wont hurt, will it?
If it does, just leave me alone.
Thanks to those helping out and cooperating but when it comes to the cheer. Really appreciate it.

To those still hating, dont like the way i have been, why dont you just say it to me?
Why would you want to give attitude, pretending like you're my friend when you're just living a lie. Like come on lah, small thing also want make so big for what sia? DAMNBLOODYFUCKEDUP.

Time passed so fast.
From the rare glances to the hugest of smiles.
You've been there. Ups and downs.
But we're still here.
Always on my mind.
Missing you loads.
I love you bby♥

2010-02-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDAYAPXINYU♥~!
Time really flies doesnt it?
At first, we were merely friends who smile at each other during band practice. Soon, we talked and become good friends. Without realising it, we were this close. We had fun for the past few weeks, going out, talking and just hanging out. Now, your birthday has finally arrived.

160210
Went visiting with kheng they all.
Shan huai's house.
Ting peng's house.
Kar kheng's house.
Sherwyn's house.

Went to accompany shermaineZUZU to meet evelle(?).
They wanted to watch movie or eat dinner, but changed their mind.
Eugene joined, then went to beach, sit at empty pit.
Called sherwyn, then went to Ehub.
JustAcia but they not there.
Slack at the stairs there then they call say eat at Fish and Co.
Eateat, Joseph got hole in his tongue.
Accidentally bit the vein there then got blood keep coming out.
SEE LAHH~! EAT BAKUA(dontknowhowspell) SOMEMORE~!
then we went to park. Celebrate bby's bithday.
Reach park then play sparklers.
Left at 10, sent bby home.
Taxi-ed home.

Happy birthday bby!
Missing you.
I love you sweetheart♥

2010-02-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY TO ALL WHOM ARE CELEBRATING~!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY~!♥

Friday-120210
Schooled, the usual boring lessons.
Went back home to change and met up with kheng they all.
Watched PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF~!
DAMN AWESOME.
Seating arrangement;
Melvin, sherwyn, amanda, me, ryan, bernard, darren, kheng, yi huai.
Ate dinner at sweethouse @ dte there~
Then went to beach to play sparklers and slack.
Had alot of private talks. Thanks melvin, really appreciate it.
Took group photos and left.
Me and melvin sent amanda home.
The rest pei-ed sherwyn home.
Reached around 11 there.

thanks for friday bby.
wished it would have been longer.
missing you.
i love you loads sweetheart♥.

2010-02-06T22:16:00.001+08:00

Today, went for SAMBA practice at EASTVIEWSECONDARY~~ First we did without BUKITBATOKSEC then like damn fail sia, cos everyone no mood or groove. Then when BUKITBATOKSEC came, we tried one more time. BUT! everyone still like no mood. then kena lecture say that we like no mood or energy. Until they figured out why we so jialat liddat. CAUSE WE NEVER EAT BREAKFAST~~! then they give break, go out. EAT. go back.

SUGARRUSH~! We practiced around four times more but i still prefer the first one after the break cos everyone got mood and energy. After finishfinish, went century square to "EAT''. Then like no mood then i go home.

Reach home, go play game to let time pass until SHERWYNTOON call me ask me go out eat dinner. 6.50 met her in the train with karyl~ LONG.TIME.NO.SEEEE~
Met up with the rest. Went to Justacia at dte. EAT.
Then sent karyl to SPC, her father fetch. CH!NAMARCH~!
Then slack under block with kheng, talktalktalktalk until kheng's mom called.
Walked to his block then walked to busstop with sherwyn then talktalk about stuffstuff.
She talk like got script i tell you. ><
Then bus come, went home.

Time passed me by like i was living a dream
But things started to get shaky after a few things
One - She found another, that broke my heart
Two - My anger which broke us apart
Three - My jealousy when she's with the others
But not with me, why cant you see. That i truly love her
Life before her was such a blur, man i really need her
In my life. She's my freedom, my joy, my everything
But then i'm really sorry for not listening.

Things went up and down like a rollercoaster ride
Days that make me smile while some gave me a fright
But i never stopped loving her, i never will
Wished we were something like Jack and Jill

2010-01-29T21:07:00.000+08:00

BACKBACKBACK FROM CAMP~~~!!!
Camp was superduperultra funn.
GROUP 9 and 10 RAWKZXZXZ~~! 3/5 WHAT! hehehehe...
Akmal was the most enthu among us, SPORTING SIA!
Had good and fun times together as a class and also with the rest of the level.
Changed our trainers alot cos no permanent trainers. =_o
Day One was off to a slow start but we managed.
Day Two was the best and worst day of the camp. SORRYFORBLOWINGMYTOP.
THE FOOD WAS AWESOME LAHHHH CANNN~~!
Became closer to my new classmates, especially the MINAHs AND MATs in class. HAHAHA~!

There was this girl in my school and her face i will remember
I didnt know her well until 2008's September
One day, we went out with our frens, you see
Then my feelings towards her changed to L-O-V-E
Our friendship grew as time went by
We were having fun but never said goodbye
Its always talk to you later, and see you then
But always in my heart, i wished she was my girlfriend

What Can i Say?

2009-12-19T19:15:00.000+08:00

Hey, sorry i took so long to post again. :x
The past week has been really crazy, tiring BUT funnn~

Monday
Went to the gym with TPS Soccer Guys (Firdaus, Iskandar, Jon, Shankar, Marcus)
Damn tiring but really funny.
Everyone carrying like 5 blocks of weight and MARCUS CHEW [SQUARE] is carrying only one weight! Retarded sia.
Then we ran on the treadmill. Ran 2.5 km! ^^V
Ate lunch then slack at T1 4th Level balcony til 6.30.
Got to meet Haziqah (Isk's Gal).

Tuesday
Went to East View for Band, quite okay lah. Zharfan waited 30 minutes for me at the bus stop. SORRY! :x
Then went to meet the TPS Soccer Guys at Sengkang Swimming Complex.
WAITED FOR THEM FOR ONE HOUR THIRTY MINUTES JUST COS THEY TOOK WRONG LOOP, WHEN THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO TAKE THE EAST LOOP. =.="
When they finally came, we headed to the changing room. Change, put stuff at locker then we go swim.
The slides were awesome. We shouted "JIMMY JUBZ! SALLEH! ROSLEE!" when sliding.
Damn funny to hear. Did that alot of times then went to play "Catching" in the pool.
bastard sia, always kena target by Jon. Around 6.30 we left. Played cards on the bus, went to Shankar's house to slack. Played Halo on X-Box Live. Some of the online players irritating sia, backstab us quit our group halfway. Nvm lah. Had fun! Around 10, we left.
I know we sound childish at the swimming complex but thats the way US guys have fun. :P

Wednesday
Rot at home

Thursday
Didnt go East View for band practice. ><

Friday
Played soccer with TPS Soccer Guys. Tiring.

Today~
Was supposed to play soccer again but didnt os too tired then cannot wake up.
Woke up around 1.30. TIRED MAHH!

Like I Never Left

2009-12-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

IM BACK!
Cambodia was WOW!
GROUP 3 was a family, with 5 sons and 1 mom!~
Put away their terrible past and living conditions, you'll get used to it.
You wouldnt want to leave after 11 days there.
Missing everything there.
Havent uploaded pictures but i'll do it asap. ><

-Friday-
Woke up for school reallyreally early. =.="
Didnt get enough rest.
Band practice then went to Bukit Batok Secondary for extra pratice.
Went home and slept.

-Saturday-
Woke up reallyreallyreally early again. =.="
Went for band performance.
Overall, it was nice and funnnn~
Saw Sean Tan and Naomi there.
WOW. Didnt know Naomi could play the saxophone so well and her solo was amazing. [:
SLACKED AT PASIR RIS PARK WITH PEOPLE~
Went home, slacked and slept.

I apologise about what happened.
It just did.
Like i said.
It feels like i never left.
Sorry.

CAMBODIAonMONDAY!

2009-11-22T02:27:00.000+08:00

Its late and im not asleep when im supposed to be. :x
Just got some things in my mind.
Maybe i'll sleep it off soon.

Anyway, this week has been really packed.
Monday - Cambodia packing
Tuesday - Band and Cambodia packing
Wednesday - Bukit Batok Band Practice, Didnt go to Cambodia packing
Thursday - Mom met Mr. Leung and talked for more than an hour.
Friday - GRAD NIGHT!
Had fun during grad night, doing duty and party-ing with the seniors.
Gonna miss them though. >-<

Today, went to get my windbreaker etcetc. for Cambodia trip this MONDAY!
Quite excited, gonna be there til the 3rd of December.

Hello!

2009-11-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

Hello! (:
Class chalet was awesome.
I'm currently at Felfel's house.
With Christie.
We are talking about Penang ;D
[Inside joke!]
I like Blobby a lot.
Satay was nice.
Marshmallows the best!
Chicken not cooked.
Penang is the best :D
I am skinny :D
Byebye :D

-Penang rules!-

BREATH OF FRESH AIR~

2009-10-18T18:03:00.000+08:00

FREEDOM~~
Finally, EOYs are over. No more stress for now. >-<
Went out on friday, after art exam. [Art was easy. Like DUH!]
Watched 'IMAGINE THAT'. Quite funny and nice. (:

Went to Adli's place on saturday for gathering.
It was alright, i guess.
Didnt feel like the way i used to when the four of us were together.
Guess things changed between me and her.

Monday's a holiday though. But not in the holiday mood, i donno why.
Time flew by reallyreally quick this year. >~<
I gotta go, i'll post asap.

sorry about the pain that i made you feel.

2009-10-07T21:23:00.000+08:00

~END OF YEAR~
Good luck and all the best for them...
Hopefully, i'll do fine. :X

nothingbutBITCHESandNIGGAS...

2009-10-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

Exams are cominggggggg~~~~
wow, time sure does fly. =.=

Been busy for the past two weeks preparing for EOYs.
I'm not really prepared for it. :x
Had English and Mother Tongue Paper 1 on friday.
It was okay, i guess.
sorry to hear bout daniel's incident.
Doing maths revision paper nowww. >~<
It sure sucks to the core.
GAWD! please help me through the exams...
GOOD LUCK TO YOUYOUYOU PEOPLE.

2009-09-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

--------END OF FASTING MONTH--------
YAY! Fasting month is OVERRRRRR!!!!
Can start eating normally again. >~<

Firstly, SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all my muslim friends.
I'm sorry if i have ever insulted or hurt anyone.
Hope you forgive for all the mistakes i've made to make you angry or sad in any way.
Enjoy this SHORT holiday. AND good luck for your upcoming exams! [:

ILOVEYOU

----ITS BEEN TOUGH----

2009-09-12T22:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not posting in a longlonglonglonglonglonglonglong time.
I've been busy with teacher's day praparation and stuff. :x

Anyway, its the holidays and ending in 2 days. BLEHHHHHH!
I've done most of my homework [SURPRISINGLY]
Fasting month is ending, THANK GAWD!

Firstly, teachers day was FUNN! Performed. And i can proudly say that this year's celebration is waywaywayway better than last year. But the sad thing is that we ended at 3! =.="
Couldnt go back TPS. *sigh*

The holidays have been boring and crappy.
Had to go back to skool to help out in cleaning up the council room. >~<
It was damn untidy and full of dust bunnies....
But its muchmuch better now. YAY US! ^~^
Then went back for cambodia meeting.
FUN-NESS the whole time. Played some games and had to pack the donations.
Nose hurt alot. *sensitive to dust*
In between, i studied outside and did my homework at White Sands library.
Had to use any reason i could to get out of the house.

TODAYTODAYTODAYTODAYTODAY!
Went out with uncle and his gf to buy GUITAR HERO 5!
Then went to buy baju kurung at geylang. Wasnt so crowded tho.
Uncle's house - Played Guitar Hero 5, break fast, played some more. :P

NOW - at home. >.<
Just finished eating pizza.

Whycantyouguysleaveheralone?
missyou loveyou

2009-08-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

SUPERsuperDUPERuberULTRA SORRY for not posting for a LONGLONGLONGLONGLONG TIME. Had nothing much to post about.

Today; super sian. :x
Literature - full of shit. Then got test next week. =.='''

English - even more shitzxz, can sleep in class sia. Thenthen cher go toktoktok til no one listen.

--- RECESS ---
Ate, went to sell bears for Cambodia Trip.
THOSE WHO WANT BUY/DONATE, GO TO TOWER THIS WEEK.
BEARS ARE AT REASONABLE PRICES, *coughcough*.
1 - $8
2 - $15
GET TO CHOOSE YOUR BEAR'S GENDER SOMEMORE.

Geography - okayokay luh, went through new chapter and did some group work. We had to draw out how the world shrank due to the effects and causes of BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH!

Maths - okayokay UNTIL Ms Huang gave back our CT paper. Alot of people fail. =.=
I got 19/45. Not bad tho. :x

After skool, got UNSW! SO SIAN LEH!
BUT the questions were manageable.
THEN got BAND~~~
Super funny manzxzx. Got photo taking for yearbook.

Went home to change and went out again to play BADMINTON!
Was even more tiring than the last few weeks sia. Now, feel so sleepy.
I wan go sleep liao. BYE!!!!